Are relationships becoming extinct article
Dear Dillon,
This is easy to write now because I've done this over and over. I know you never got any of my letters..but that's because i didn't send them. It's hard seeing you but it's harder never seeing you..knowing you live just a few houses away. What happened? I'm told i need to look for you to find you but 2 years ago i was never looking and i still found you. And you found me. But things don't last forever. Good or bad. And life is happening to us..but whatever connection we had remains the same. It still shines as bright as the full moon, it still survives season to season, it doesn't flourish, but it is persistently fighting for its way to the truth. What happened? I never took notice of people who vanished ..I'm never that invested. But what happened to you? Why did i miss you ..and still?
I could never read you so maybe i was not to you what you were to me. Typical. I just want to understand what happened because i haven't succeeded in turning you into poetry. Or a ghost.
Something real lingers behind and won't let me forget anything that happened that night..those days...your eyes. And at the same time it's all my doing. Though i didn't ask for it to be this way. This was supposed to be a mutual feeling.
It happens. But i still don't know what happened. you had a girlfriend? You could've said that. You could've even lied. At least i could make sense of that. But now since there are no answers or solutions i can only wonder and hope that it will all make sense one day. And to prevent further longing and suffering i want your lingering stare to fizzle into the night and your song to fall on deaf ears. And your voice to fade. And now that you're gone I'll love you none. You're a drug that i can no longer find. And now i need to end my longing for the drug. Maybe i can tell myself that i no longer need it. Even though i know I'm lying. I want it more than anything else. It numbs the pain of everything..even the same kind you bring.
So what do i do now? Do i look for you? Do i forget you and find another? I don't know what good you are for me but you were everything i needed
I can't wait to see you. Then i will know for sure what i saw. Pain or healing. Hate or love. Peace or war. Friend or foe. It will all make sense then. I will finally know what happened and won't wait in vain for the moon and stars to solve this great mystery.
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