Nostalgia and Other Things

Life can be so bizarre
So many thoughts keep me awake
Great thoughts. Sad thoughts
Purely nostalgic thoughts
Decisions on what to do
What should've been done
What was accomplished today
What will be accomplished tomorrow?

And while you think about the little things,
Bigger things are happening
And vice versa
And you try to remember to enjoy life
Fully
But not blissfully
Because you must work hard
That's your reality
And you try to find answers in everything
You travel
You seek
You ask new questions
And wonder about the old answers
Are they still valid?

Did you really enjoy the time?
Like you thought you did?
Or were you using that pleasure
To hide guilt
Shame. Worry. Sadness
If so,  You were never truly happy
So why be nostalgic?
Why settle for preserving past mishaps
Break free
Be free
Cut the binds
Don't look back
The answers aren't there
The truth lies in the moment
In whatever you are present in
Don't waste it in more hiding